Keeping My Sanity With Keeping My Faith

The lover of three-legged dogs.

2011-08-14T17:02:00.000-07:00

A woman at church so affectionately named me the "lover of three-legged dogs". Why? Well, she began to understand me as the person who friended the unfriendly, and who gave lots and lots of chances.

Today, in church, our beloved Pastor Mike gave us a lesson in spiritual gifts, (1 cor 12:1-11). How many people have different things that our Lord has bestowed on us to bring to the our conversation and to the world. Some have discernment.. some have an unfailing faith, some have the power of healing, and so forth. What do I have? I am the lover of three-legged dogs. How many times have I been burned, countless; hurt, countless; how many people have let me down; countless. One should hold a grudge at some point, but I don't. I love everyone. I guess that is a fault?

My husband told me today that I hold on to EVERY glimmer of hope that there is to be had. Yes, I do. I consider that a gift my Lord gave to me. Not to give up on people, not to shut them out, or count them out. I can't stand letting anyone down or anyone being lonely.

Will I be burned again, most likely. Will I get angry at someone, yes, I will. Will I give up on them, probably not.

Lord help me, you gave me this gift.

Burning Quran

2010-09-07T21:42:00.000-07:00

I am completely against this "movement" that this Pastor has chosen to create. A national burn your Quran day???

Yes, the Word tells us in Acts 19:18 and 19 says, "And many who had believed came confessing and telling their deeds. Also, many of those who had practiced magic, brought their books together and burned them in the sight of all. And they counted up the value of them and it totaled fifty thousand pieces of silver."

These men, who practiced other than the Word, came forward and confessed their sins and disposed of them in a fire. Praise the Lord, He did works in these men.

Also, Galations 1:8-9, says "But even if we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel to you than what we have preached to you, let him be accursed. As we have said before, so now I say again, if anyone preaches any other gospel to you than what you have received, let him be accursed."

So, come forward with your sins, take those to the Lord and burn what you had believed in and start a new life in Him, otherwise, be cursed.

So, now we as believers, know without a shadow of a doubt that His word is the life, and the way. We know that such words as the Quran are blasphemous and not the Word of the Lord. We will aways believe in that scripture that they will be cursed and will have to answer to their sins in the coming of the Lord.

On September 11, 2001, the United States and our countrymen were attacked by believers of the Quran. A terrible tragedy. We will always remember that day, etched in our minds and our hearts.. and will always remember those lost. As a country we retaliated and we fought for our loved ones, we protected our country and God bless the men and women who have done that.. That have gone over there and fought for us, died for us, and pray that they will soon return.. I am proud of them!

Now, back to burning the Quran, goodness gracious what I would like to do to that book; the book that spawned and taught young men to kill others in the name of Allah. Blows my mind. You want to burn a book, burn it.. However, a man has a different theory on where, when and why we should burn it. To do this specifically on September 11th, is pure retaliation.

Rev. Terry Jones, Gainesville, Fl has created a movement of sorts to burn the Quran on September 11th, 2010, in retaliation of what those who believe in the Quran did to us.IN THE NAME OF GOD!!

What does our God tell us about retaliation??

Matthew 5:39 says "But I tell you not to resist an evil person. But whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also."

Now you say, "they did a whole much worse than slap us in the cheek." He died on the Cross for us, do you think that is just a slap on the cheek?

Romans 12:17-19 says "Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for for good things in the sight of all man. If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men. Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath for it is written, "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay."says the Lord" (Deuteronomy 32:35, "Vengeance is Mine, and recompense: Their foot shall slip in due time; For the day of their calamity is at hand, And the things to come hasten upon them.")

So, where should we be on September 11th of this year? Retaliating... or praying??Psalm 50:15 says, "Call upon Me in the day of trouble:I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me." And Psalm 55:22 says "Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved. "

In this, we have the positive example of the Lord Jesus Christ Himself. How did He deal with personal offence? 1 Peter 2:23 tells us "When He was reviled, He did not revile in return; when He suffered He did not threaten; but He trusted to Him Who judges justly." In leaving in God's hand, the personal abuse He received, Jesus has given us, His followers, an example to emulate.

Does this Rev. Jones sound like he is emulating Christ?

So, me, on September 11th, I am not going to concentrate on the hate that others are living. I am going to pray for the families who lost loved ones on September 11th, 2001 and all of the service member since then who have fought and died for that day, and turn my focus on Him and his redeeming love.

Update.. July

2010-07-30T18:03:00.000-07:00

Hello, friends and family.

What a month we've had. Sunny sunny sunny San Diego, hasn't been so sunny. Not exactly sure why. A lot has happened though.

I am 28 now.. Yes, I had another birthday and yes, I'm older.. darnit. My birthday was filled with such love! Terra with JJ, came over and cooked us an amazing meal and made me a beautiful cake, although it melted. My friend Hannah also came over with her beautiful Gracie. We had such a great time.. The kids played, happy Dan was able to be there for a little while.

I also was baptized on the 23rd. What a blessed day that was! Pastor Mike took me out in Pacific Ocean.. a beautiful creation of the Lord, and I was plunged in salt water under a gorgeous, sun setting sky..

Matthew was able to to get his appointment with the Pulmonologist. I felt so terrible for my son. I was not properly trained to know his triggers and notice him in distress. The pulmonary clinic was so efficiant and helped me understand, trained me correctly and gave us some new equipment. A lot of meds now, when I didn't want him on them at all. Thought he was doing better, but I again, wasn't trained properly.

And to end on a good note, my mom and Grandma were able to come and visit us for a couple of days.. We hit the beach, went to Sea World and spent a lot of quality time together. At the same time, my God mothers son, Tyler was here and I also was able to get to know him again, what a great kid!

Well, that is July in a gist. I hope this is finding you all extremely well!

Love you all,

The Felocks

Update June, 2010

2010-06-03T21:12:00.000-07:00

Hello Family and Friends!!
We are finally settled in here in San Diego and are loving it!
We haven't even been here a month yet and have already been to Sea World, the San Diego Zoo, The San Diego Wild Animal Park, The Air and science museum, Pacific Beach and Ocean Beach!
Our home is in beautiful Point Loma. Lots of green and palm trees. It is in a military community called Gateway village. The community is about four years old. It has many playgrounds throughout and even a pool with a toddler wading area!
Our home is a four bedroom, two bath and has a one car garage and a patio out the back.
Dan has started his school and so far is doing really really well. We haven't received our ship orders yet but are hoping to in the next couple of weeks.
Donna came out to visit us last week and we had so much fun. Of course we went back to Sea World and were able to see Shamu and Donna and I, thanks to my wonderful husband, were able to stay behind while he took the kids home, and ride all the rides in Sea World. We had a blast at the beaches and Madison is no longer scared of the ocean thanks to Auntie Donna.
Mackenzie gets to join us this Saturday for the summer and we are really excited to show her such a wonderful time. I am enrolling the girls in ballet, swimming and hopefully a soccer camp if I can find one that accepts three year olds.
Matthew's asthma, has been a lot less troublesome since we have arrived here. Thank the Lord!
We have found a new church that we are fairly excited about. Calvary Chapel Point Loma. It is very very small, but it is growing and we are excited to see that growth and see how the Lord is working every day!

We hope very much that you can come out and see us here at some point.. We would love to see you. We will keep you apprised of any new developments in our lives!

All of our love..
Dan, Kassey, Madison, Mackenzie and Matthew

Help find Nick Erven

2010-03-10T14:17:00.001-08:00

I need your help.. My cousin, Nicholas (Nick) Erven, disappeared from Albuquerque, NM on March 8th, 2010.. Last heard from at 11pm.

He is 25 years old.. about 6ft, medium build.. brown hair and eyes.. has tatoos on both arms.

He is driving a 2006 silver chevy cobalt..

If you have seen him.. or think you have seen him, Please.. contact me at kasseyfelock@gmail.com or 360-320-4710 or the Albuquerque Police Dept.

Thank you..

A bit of a break

2009-10-24T12:48:00.000-07:00

So Dan's dad was here for a few days.. It was okay.. not to bad.. Dan took him to the airport and took Kenzie so i am down to two kids.. and one is asleep! now to see if i can get the other asleep. Poor Matthew has already had the first viral infection of the season.. Roseola.. this morning i swore he was waking up to something else.. no fever.. cranky, lethargic, screaming.. just wouldnt stop.. but now he is sleeping.. and i am hoping he will sleep for a while.. just wait. now that i said that.. he will wake up in five minutes.
We have sunshine for the first time in a couple days.. Let Madie play outside for a while.. Im hoping itll hold out til tomorrow so we can take the kids to the pumpkin patch to pick out a pumpkin.. Such a beautiful time of year.
I swore i saw God yesterday. I was driving home from taking Nancy some dinner, and the sunshine was coming through the trees.. i looked forward.. and a beautiful shower of changing leaves came falling down on top of the car.. It was the most beautiful moment i have experienced through nature.. I was awed. I wish i had a camera and for time to stand still so i can take a picture of it.. but it will be instilled in my memory..

Worn down.. worn out..

2009-06-17T21:06:00.000-07:00

It never stops.. and we dont have a choice.. we are called parents... through thick and thin.. through happy times and sad times and through the never ending puke.. yes.. puke.. Poor Kenzie has done that more often than not in her short little life and no one can give us a reason why.. two days now and all she has done is throw up.. My carpets stink and she is so tired and cranky.. But no matter what.. we will take care of her..
I had to reschedule a couple appointments this week and that has sucked.. though they are rescheduled.. I got my perma tooth in today.. feels weird but i guess ill get used to it.. tomorrow i am supposed to have my counseling appt.. we will see if dan can get off since i cant take them to shelly's with her still throwing up.. and then we are supposed to go to the farmers market which should be fun. and then i have my appt with the surgon on friday.. hopefully ill get to go to that one too..
I am just so worn down though.. It never stops.. we keep going and going and when does everything we have end? I havent even eaten dinner cause i cant seem to find the time..(and a salt free meal)
When does it end.. when do i get just one day of peace? No im not talking about the kids screaming cause that is inevitible... im talking about circumstances.. without the puking.. without feeling my anxiety..without trying to be everything for everyone when its completly impossible.. espessially in my current emotional state.. I just cant keep going like this.. Im so tired.. I just cant make everyone happy.. One more day i guess..

Matthew's appt at the NW Asthma and Allergy Center

2009-06-08T17:21:00.000-07:00

So Matthew and I left for Everett this morning at 730 and arrived there shortly after 9.. super early for his 1015 appt.. Though i did make one wrong turn and wished i had the tomtom which my sister has convienently confiscated.

We then sat there for about an hour waiting for our appt time.. We finally got to see the doctor and gave him Matthew's full history.. He decided that we needed to continue with the pulmacort, .25mg once every other day unless he is having another URI (upper respitory infection) then bump it up to .50 every day.. and albuterol.

So then they did a skin test to determine if there is any indoor allergens that could be affecting his quality of life.. They tested for dogs, cats and dust mites.
He tested negative for all of them.. however, the doctor suggested that we needed to decrease matthew's exposure to dogs.. We need to keep all the hair up, do not let the dog in any area that matthew's sleeps and all blankets and sheets need to be washed in hot water to get rid of any pet dander.. also if matthew is exposed to the dog, to change his clothes and give him a bath..
Why do this you ask? If he isnt allergic to dogs? Well i asked the same thing.. Why? The doctor said..because of his viral history and family history, there may be a lag in terms of the pet allergy that may appear later down the road, however, may not for many years.. and if we limit Matthew's exposure to the dog, it might keep him from being allergic to dogs in the future.. So we will make some changes in our home and in terms of Oscar.. and maybe get a couple hepa air filters for around the house..
So that is all for the Bubbie for now.. he is doing great otherwise and hope he continues to do so.. time to go make dinner.. bye bye for now!

Father and Son bond..

2009-06-02T21:38:00.000-07:00

Dan got a new cover today.. with his name on the back and everything.. all new and pretty.. yadda yadda.. He came home for lunch and showed it to me and i decided to put it on Matthew's head.. so super cute..

I saw the name at the top.. and thought to myself.. he has an identity.. He is Dan Felock's son.. Matthew Felock.. the only male Felock to carry on the name.. and to wear that cover.. he is a little boy.. I havent thought about the bond the two are going to have... starting with putting on his hats and wanting to be like daddy.. wearing his shoes, acting like him.. talking like him..

Then there is playing sports.. and then maybe when he is older.. joining the navy.. just like his dad..

I have an image in my head right now.. of them walking away from me.. hand in hand.. going to go do some manly thing.. and maybe my little mamas boy.. wont be a mamas boy so much.. But i think that will be okay with me.. Dan is a loving perfect husband and dad and i think my little boy is so lucky to idolize him and to adore him and to strive to be like him..

Here is to my little boy growing up to be just like his daddy.. Cheers.

My Weekend.

2009-06-01T20:12:00.001-07:00

So friday.. I sold the mustang.. bye bye POS car!!! Very excited and got 300 bucks out of the deal..so we went out to applebees friday night.. what a nightmare.. Also friday i got my prep instructions for the colonoscopy/endoscopy i had today.. Didnt seem like such a big deal until you read the things you are not supposed to eat.. Its like eating nothing but pasta... seriously...

Saturday we went out to the free kids day at the skagit county fair grounds.. what a great day.. beautiful sun.. the kids loved the animals.

Then we had church saturday night.. The kids nursery attendant had an allergic reaction to eggs from something she ate so i ran her home for her epi pen.. and then went back to church.. My choir director doesnt like the kids in service so i spent what would be my time at church to worship, in the nursery with my kids.. I felt like they were an inconvience and it really hurt to not be able to worship. But dont ask how i really feel about that.

Sunday, we went to church so Dan could sing at the service for the confirmation kids.. it was beautiful.. I have never heard him sing with such confience.. he really rocked that song.. "washed by the water"

Sunday is the day that i cant eat anything.. all liquid diet..didnt suck too terribly bad once i got the broth.. Then i had to drink a gallon of this stuff called golytele.. OMG.. it was terrible.. made me so sick to my stomach and had to drink an 8oz glass of it every 15 minutes... i almost died.I spent the evening in my room running back and forth to the bathroom..

Fell asleep around midnight and after midnight i could not have anything to drink or eat.. I stayed in bed til 10am.. took a shower and headed into the hospital for the procedure... Wasnt bad.. was in and out of there within a couple of hours. now my stomach is all gurgely and i dont feel much for eating but how can i not for not eating for over 24 hours..

Ive been so irritated cause i cant nurse matthew.. and he is taking well to the formula but its driving me nuts cause i want to be able to sooth him when he cries but i cant and now i have a clogged duct even though im pumping.. it hurts.. so there is my weekend..

Why don't they come potty trained??

2009-05-24T20:15:00.000-07:00

So.. two weeks ago, I would have told you that Madison would be the first one to potty train.. Boy was I wrong.. Kenzie, when she came back from her moms this week decided that today was the day.. and she hasnt turned back.. She isnt wetting her pullups when she has them on and she is only wearing diapers at night (cause we havent learned that yet). She goes without being asked, she isnt wearing any diapers all day! And today we went to the play ground.. Gone about 45 minutes and no accidents at all!
Now Madie on the other hand has decided that...NOPE... No more potty's.. she is not going near one.. she will cry when i suggest it and when she doesnt have a diaper on, she is throwing an abosolute fit.. What is that about??
Matthew is so fussy lately.. can't leave the child by himself for anything.. Two minutes on the floor and he is screamin.. It is so frustrating. He isnt rolling over yet... (and there he is going again.. more fussing) and he will just cry and cry and cry.. I know that if i keep carrying him around.. two things are going to happen.. One is that I will go crazy and break my back and two.. he isnt going to learn anything.. Time to get tough and tough it out..
The window broke today.. no idea how.. (i think dan threw up a rock while mowing) and it just shattered.. called out security and maintence to clean it up.. we have glass people coming out next week to fix it.. ugh.. what next...
Going to get Matthew down for the night and try to relax.. though there is so much laundry to get done.. Girls need more summer clothes.
Night Night